Updated the picture blog with some random pictures of FOB, Panic!, and Criss Angel. Plus a really bad drawing I did as a joke.

Anyway.

Today was good as well. I woke up, listened to music, updated my iPod (yay, two eps of Mind Freak!), went to practice (which was sorta short because Rand-o is recoverring from getting a cyst removed), ate at Subway with Remer the Lemur, then I came home and watched the episode of Mind Freak I missed while we were at John Mayer's concert last Tuesday.

Then I turned Clothes off! on full blast (since I was home alone) and freaking danced. It was awesome.

And now, I am here, bloggin'.

I'm kinda pissed, there are like twenty awesome new Panic! pics on Buzznet but they're "18 only" for some reason. I'm tempted to change my age, but I dunno if it'd let me.

Also, I might get to go see FOB in July. My dad thinks it'd be cool. That's right, I converted my padge! He loves FOB now (Now to get my mom to like Panic!...that'll prolly never happen). However, my seats would suck. But hey, I'd get to meet TAI! Yay!

So, Jack O'Leery (I gotta stop giving everyone nicknames) said I need to get a boyfriend and I'd know who he was when he jumped me. Yeah, that's romantic. But everyone keeps saying that! Like, "Why don't you have a boyfriend?" And I have no clue.

I mean, I have a little thing called integrity. I'm not the type of girl to change who I am to get boys to notice me or to flirt like crazy or whatever. The-girl-who-shall-not-be-named that I know does it and it's so embarassing. If only she knew how people talk about her behind her back....

I dunno? Am I ugly or something? I mean, I know girls who look like me physically and are smart and whatever like me, and boys totally dig them, and not just because they wanna get in their pants. I have no idea.

But really, why should I adhere to soceity and everyone else's assumption that I should have a boyfriend? I mean, Christ, I'm 16 years old. I'm obviously not gonna marry this person. It's kinda stupid, if you think about it. I guess you date people just so you know who you wanna settle down with or whatever.

But why must we settle down? I mean, hell, as far as I'm concerned, love is just nature's way of tricking us into reproducing. It's just a biological thing that boils completely down to lust, which definately makes pregnancy happen.

Then again, this is coming from a girl who's never been in love, never been kissed or loved by someone else. I'm a bitter old bitch, that's what I am.

I may be quixotic (+5 vocab use!), but that doesn't mean I believe in it for me.
Sure, I dig relationships in movies and whatever...and with celebrities for instance, I think it's really cute when they date...

But still.

Ah, fuck it.

I'm gonna be a swinger forever.

On a semi-related tangent, today we were somehow on the discussion of National Honor Soceity (which I will never join unless I get something damn good out of it, like, I dunno...GOING TO SEE PANIC! LIVE?), and I kinda freaked out on everyone.

What's the fucking point of high school? To get good grades. What's the point of NHS? To look good on a college application. Why do these things? To get into a good college, so you can get a good job, so you can work for about 30 years and then retire so you can die without doing shit.

WHAT.

THE.

FUCK?

This is not how I wanna spend my life. Fuck, in geologic terms, the Earth has been around FOREVER and I've been around 16. I haven't done shit. I wanna live my life to the fullest and I don't feel that this is the way to do it.

I've been having an identity crisis lately, I dunno what I wanna do with my life.

FUUUUUUCCCCKKKK.

I'm doomed.

Well, we all are...

God, I'm getting in a meloncholy mood.

I'mma go watch some funny videos to get in a better mood.

And maybe eat the other half of that meatball sub I had earlier.

I fucking love those things.

Lauren's "fuck" count: 6